Sunday, January 7, 2018

I'm still here!

It feels so weird to not have posted anything in a week after posting daily for an entire month, but I haven't had much to "share" lately. I've only completed one small sewing project: just a tote bag to test out a few features on my sewing machine. I have three knitting WIPs, one of which is a cardigan I'm hoping to finish up in the next couple of days so I can take it with me on my trip to San Antonio.

My other WIP is the Resferber sock by Mina of Knitting Expat Designs. I've got about 3" until I start decreasing for the toe on my first sock. I'm planning on a true afterthought heel this time around and I'm really enjoying the pattern so far. I'm trying not to knit it up too fast because I need plane projects! I will say that I'm using fewer stitches and smaller needles than I ever have and it's giving me a much denser fabric. I've tested it out and it's a bit snug, by my last two pairs of socks are pretty loose and I want to see if I prefer a smaller sock this time around. I'm also knitting socks via magic loop for the first time. I wish I would have split my yarn so I could do two-at-a-time socks, but I didn't think to do that until it was too late.

I hope I'll have some FOs to show y'all after my trip to Texas. I'm really looking forward to seeing some of my best friends, as I've been feeling a little lonely lately and they always know how to make me feel better!

Monday, January 1, 2018

January Small Goals

I somehow survived December and made it into the new year, blog and all. Something that I found really helpful the past few months was making a few smaller goals to commit to for the month. They tend to be easier for me to stick to instead of spearheading the new year with a big ass list of all this shit I'm never going to do. I did make some goals and commitments for the year in my previous post, but I kept them very general on purpose with the intent on making more time-based goals each month.

My friends Nicole, Harper, and Mia have also done this same exersize in the past and then recap them in the following month. As we know, I love inserting myself into a conversation, so here are my small goals for January.

1. Clean out my closet | There's a lot of...stuff in there, much of which doesn't belong to me or doesn't belong there in the first place. Clearing out space in my closet would also mean I'd have more space to store my dyeing supplies.

2. Get a Washington state driver's license | Technically, you're required to change your driver's license within 60 days of moving into another state if you plan on residing there. I've been here nearly 3 years and still have my Florida driver's license. Call the cops, I don't give a frick. I really do need to change it over, though.

3.Renew my passport | My passport actually expires in February, but I'd rather take care of this and my driver's license at the same time because I plan on my hair looking good that day for double photo duty. I will never waist a good hair day, y'all.

4. Clean out my pantry | I do this once a year anyway. I go through all of my dry goods and check expiration dates, give the shelves a good wipe down, dust off anything that looks well...dusty, and move older items to the front. It's leftover training from my LUSH days. It's a task I actually really enjoy!

5. Get a pedicure | Slightly superficial, but as someone who danced for years and walks about a mile each day, I know how important it is to take care of one's feet. The dry weather has done a number on these dogs and I really need to do something about it, y'all.

Sunday, December 31, 2017

Blogmas Day 31: Blogmas Wrap Up

Here we are on the last day of the year. It sounds super cliche, but I feel like this year really did haul ass. There was just so much going on, y'all. This year was way too much and frankly, I'm glad it's over.

(Adorable 2018 tea towel calendar I got for Christmas)

Blogmas is also over and I have to say, I'm proud of myself for doing the whole shebang instead of Blogvent like I had originally intended. Writing for myself has been really fun and it's something I've looked forward to every day! I intend on staying on the blog train, as it were, because like I talked about in my post on DPD, having a record I can refer to about past events is honestly very helpful and healing for me.

I'll have another post going up tomorrow about small goals I have for January, but I probably won't be blogging every single day. While it was fun, it's also a lot of work!

I plan on posting about sewing and knitting projects I'm working on, as well as other creative endeavors, and just putting pen to paper as it were about what's going on with me.

I don't have any plans for this evening. I'll probably spend it on the sofa, watching Netflix and knitting something (FOR MYSELF!!!) and watching the fireworks over the Lake Union from my living room window. 

I hope everyone has a safe and mindful New Year, lord knows we deserve it.

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Blogmas Day 30: Obligatory Resolutions Post

I've chatted in the past about the split schools of thought on whether sharing resolutions is basically shooting yourself in the foot or not. Personally, sharing my goals with others is a way of holding myself accountable because nothing makes me hate myself more than getting an email from someone that's like 'Hey, is this still happening?'.

Granted, I'm not going to write a whole long list of things I'm definitely not going to do and or things I'm going to unhealthily obsess over. What I'd rather do is make commitments to myself and give myself very broad goals for the year as a whole and focus on smaller, monthly goals. Something I've really liked is the idea of giving a year in time a "theme" so to speak, so I want to try that out for 2018.

In 2018, I want to trust my own two hands.

I feel like I can apply this in a lot of different areas of my life, whether it's my mental health, creative endeavors, politics, my business, etc. I second-guess myself a lot, y'all. I want to commit to myself in this new year that I'll trust my instincts a little more. Everything else comes secondary to trust in pretty much any aspect of life.

There are other things I want to commit to that fall under a pretty broad category that I can drill down into as the year goes on, such as taking better care of my body, being more creative, managing my time better. But all of those things will come after I trust myself and the work I know I can do.

Friday, December 29, 2017

Blogmas Day 29: Instagram Best Nine

I'm just a touch late to the game, but I wanted to hold out until the last minute to get those extra faves in before generating my Instagram Best Nine for 2017.

In 2016, all of my best nine were (rightfully) selfies. Somehow two FOs managed to sneak in this year lol.

I constantly harp on and on about how much I hate having my picture taken and I think it's apparent in the non-selfies that I still feel kind of uncomfortable in front of a camera that I'm not holding myself. This is something I want to get better about, especially if I'm going to make a whole bunch of garments in the new year. I want to be able to show them off, especially if I spend all this time making them!

Same goes for taking photos of costumes. They're such a huge effort and I never get any shots of them. It sucks.

If I'm honest, I just don't know what to do in front of the camera. Do I look at it? Do I smile? Do I not smile? What am I supposed to do? My friends are so good at being in front of a camera and I'm just like "How? How do I do this?" as if a camera is some magical thing that renders me completely unable to process a basic thought.

I've watched videos on this very thing, but I still can't seem to be comfortable with having my picture taken and I'm sure it has something to do with self-image or something. I also have this weird fear of people seeing me take photos of myself out in public. For someone who doesn't give a shit what people think of me, I sure do care if they see me snapping a selfie. What a weird and stupid thing to care about!

I'm going to try my best to be more comfortable with myself and the moments I want to preserve next year. Maybe I should just get a phone case that says "If you don't like me taking a picture of myself, you can suck it I guess".

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Blogmas Day 28: Fo la la la la, my shawl is done!

I think I set a personal record for how fast I completed a project because my Nirmilintu is already finished! Can I just say I really need to invest in some actual blocking mats because blocking on towels on your bathroom floor is some shit I need to leave in 2017.

FO Notes:
- I remain in love with garter stitch because I hate purling and there's no purling in this pattern
- The lace pattern is super easy and the chart (my first chart!) was super easy to understand
- I somehow managed to flub at least one row of lace in each lace repeat but it's not an actual design so you can't really tell
- Boy, did I hate this bind-off. I know it's to give you that pointy picot edge but for some reason, it gave me hand cramps and I feel like it took forever.
- The pattern didn't take nearly as much yarn as it said it would. My skeins are 400y each, but I didn't even use the full first skein. I could have done loads more repeats but I didn't want this huge cumbersome shawl. So, now I have an entire skein left over and then some, which will probably be used for socks if I'm honest.

All in all, this was a super quick knit and I already kind of want to cast on another one in this gorgeous emerald fingering weight yarn I have in my stash as a late Christmas gift for my sister.

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Blogmas Day 26: Wearability Worries

One of the great things about being a home sewist now is the sea of choice you have when it comes to fabric. There are so many amazing options out there now, especially with places like Spoonflower were up and coming illustrators and artists can get their work out there.

I've always been a huge fan of fun prints and bright colors. There was a time when nearly my entire wardrobe was comprised of jersey knit tops and dresses that had fun prints like animals or typewriters or bicycles on them.

Now that I'm a little older and live in a different city where fashion trends are much different, I worry about the wearability of heavily printed items. Don't get me wrong, I don't give a shit what people think of me, but there is something to be said about how you present yourself out there into the world and unfortunately, nothing makes something look home sewn quite like printed fabric.

As I'm getting ready for #sewmystyle (less than a week until January!), I've been waffling about what fabric I want to make the first project in. It's a pattern called the Sunny Dress by Friday Pattern Company, and regardless of me thinking this is barely a dress and more of a tunic, it's still really cute and I can't wait to see how it turns out.

(if you have to pull it down it's not a dress, my dudes)

As someone with a huge ass, I'm digging all these indie pattern designers opting for the curved hemlines. It looks great on me so thanks for that, y'all.

But, here's my conundrum: I don't know if I want to make this in a print or a solid. I've narrowed my choices down to four different fabrics, two solids and two prints.

(Top: Organic Hemp and Cotton from Stonemountain, Eye Print fabric from Stonemountain
Bottom: Inky Raindrops from Spoonflower, Italian Windsor Tissue Weight from Mood Fabrics)

In an effort to get more variety of color into my wardrobe (I have a very odd amount of blue in there, somehow), my two solids are warm-toned. I've had my eye on that wine-colored tissue weight from Mood for a hot minute and will probably buy some yardage regardless. I also really love the terracotta color of the second option. I used to wear this color a lot in Florida and find it to be super flattering on my olive skin.

As for prints, I wanted something fun but still monochromatic because knits with too much going on tend to look like either pajamas to me. I'm a sucker for watercolor anything, so I'm really into the raindrop print and how apt because Seattle.

I've also been on the hunt for some interesting eye fabric, which is a weird sentence I never thought I'd type. But this particular style of print seems to be really hot right now and I'm definitely into it, though I can't explain why. There's just something about it that makes me go "Yes, good." and I think this would look really cool as a tunic over some leggings with a cardigan thrown over it, y'know?

Truth be told, I'm probably going to grab both a solid and one of the prints. You can never have too much jersey knit, honestly, and some of my t-shirts are getting to the point where they can't really be repaired anymore and will probably have to be replaced soon.

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